Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Monday, March 30, 2009
Saturday, March 28, 2009
But i'm seriously stuffed up (again!) and need kleenex and sleep. Will post more with pictures tomorrow.
Friday, March 27, 2009
Dinner in Ancaster, and dessert at Jesse & Mel's - a very nice visit with good friends, and good food.
note to self - must have more nights like those more often.
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Stopped at Chapters and picked up book for the book club (michelle is starting a book club - so exciting). It was a good night at knit night - we are getting to be a pretty big group - soon we might need to find a bigger space to meet at.
Then pauly picked me up (and andrea) and we went grocery shopping. Home now, going to finish the last few pages of my other book, and head to bed.
Tomorrow we are going out for dinner with Mel & Jesse & Friends, then back to their place for cake.
Should be good.
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
I missed another day. (yesterday to be exact) I worked late, ran home from the subway station to catch the season finale of Jon and Kate, ate dinner at quarter after 10 (way to late) and instantly fell asleep on the couch while Paul turned on and played more of his video game. (which I actually have to admit, has a bit of a story to it, and is mildly interesting - even to a non-videogamer)
Yesterday there was several things at work that made me really mad. And they carried over into today. Which is frustrating, cause it totally makes me un-motivated to work and the more I look at the things to get done, the more frustrated I get. And the more it builds the less I get done. A never ending cycle of doom.
In one of these moments of doom, I wrote out my "coles notes" version of "my life plan". It includes 5 categories with at least one thing to strive for. My categories included: Job/ Career, Health, Future/House, Money/Budgets, Overall Life. And here is what i'd like to do:
Job/Career - need a new one, one that I can be passionate about and enjoy getting up to go to
Health - to get better for good! Will mean changing my diet/ eating habits. Get outside more and Exercise.
Future/House - Find and buy a house with pauly (preferrably outside of this yucky city), get married (again preferrably to pauly), get a dog, have kids, learn to love my life the way it is, and love myself the way I am.
Money/ Budgets - SAVE, SAVE, SAVE for house, vacation in July, a future wedding?, loan payoffs, and nice stuff for future house
Overall Life - need to get MOTIVATED. Get out more, start doing things outside of my normal "routine", read more, knit more, sew more, cook more and cook better, keep the house clean, clear out old stuff that is "cluttering" our life.
I've listed it here so that perhaps it will force me to commit since im decarling it in front of others - how many who read it, who knows. But those are my basic "goals". I just need to get my act together, I can't blame anyone else (not that i've been trying too) but i'm the only one that can make these changes to my life and if I don't start now, its only going to get worse.
Sunday, March 22, 2009
No Sewing. Not much of anything really. I think its safe to say that for the last few months i've been in a real funk. Lacking motivation of any kind. I didn't get up until late morning yesterday and didn't go out with Paul in the morning to get the car tuned-up. When he got in, he didn't want to go back out. After sleeping more in the early afternoon, I got up and went down to kensington. I needed to get some stuff for the knit swap next weekend. It was a good walk - although I wore bad shoes and my feet were not happy.
I thought it would make sense to stop at Dufferin mall to look for some new ones, but i had no luck, and just got my frustrated with myself. I called paul to see if he could come and get me, and as usual he very nicely said yes.
We stayed in and watched the hockey game and had a nice night, although I feel asleep in the 3rd period and clearly missed blogging saturday.
Today sat around and did nothing - just thought of things - instead of doing them. And now sitting watching TV while Paul is at hockey. And i'm okay with that, at least for right now, tomorrow could be a different story.
Friday, March 20, 2009
I predict a busy crafting weekend.
Thursday, March 19, 2009
i'm hungry, tired and cranky. Not a good combination.
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Left work "early" came home, searched for "cool" sunglasses cases. Cleaned kitchen, put in laundry, made dinner, watched jon & kate re-run, was SUPPOSE to get up and make Julie a "going away" sunglasses case for her trip - but feel asleep on the couch.
Nothing else got done. sleep was essential apparently. sorry julie.
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Although I did pay off a good portion of my credit card today, and put aside my "required" amount to my savings for my potential "house" fund. I'm pretty sure paul isn't ready for it and he isn't in the saving mode as I am, but at least i'll get a head start I suppose. I really should take a few months stop putting money aside and pay off some of my loan accounts. However right now I can really afford to put a little money everywhere, at I feel like i'm getting somewhere. Apposed to just paying one thing off, and not really feeling that accomplished. Today I at least feel like i've paid off a bit of everything and i'm really making progress.
I've got less then 10,000 in debt, between everything - OSAP, Loan, Credit Card. Thats good! At least I think thats pretty darn good. And i've got 2,000 in savings. And I still have money to get my knit swap gift and groceries this week.
So i've looked at that part of my life today, everything else has not been touched. Including our kitchen which is a mess and it bugs me, but i couldnt be bothered tonight. Not only did I work tilll 830, but i had to bring some work home.
Soon as I got in I took a bubble bath, put my jammies on, had a cup of tea, and watched the end of a very intese hockey game. Now blog, work, bed. I NEED to be at work by (but hopefully before) 9am tomorrow. This stuff needs to get to the client by 10. Then hopefully my day will slow down. I want to leave at 5 tomorrow. Maybe stop in for a 10 min. massage before coming home, to clean, do laundry, and sew a bit. At least thats the plan for now.
ps: only 31 days to go.
Monday, March 16, 2009
so i'm going to bed now.
Sunday, March 15, 2009
Saturday, March 14, 2009
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Which on that note, I think I'll retire to bed to knit and sleep.
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
It's weird working real late with a ton of other people. Most other people were working on the pitch for tomorrow - but a few of us were working on summer/ fall planning - lucky us.
Alright I need to sleep cause its late and I didnt sleep last night.
I'm going to go to knit group tomorrow (yipee for knitpicks stuff!) so I should be home at a decent hour - here's hoping.
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Pretty un-eventful birthday as usual. Tried to not let anyone at work find out. They did. Mom and Dad sent flowers as usual, and my team signed a secret card, and let Kim give it to me, along with some chocolates.
Julie made me a great birthday gift. I think the best one I got this year. Besides the flowers and the recycled chocolates (they were from a work supplier I believe) it was the only thing I got - but by far worth it. A ball of yarn and knitting needles made from office supplies.Worked until 6ish, then went to the Workroom with Terri for their monthly Stitch and bitch. She sadly ripped out her pretty sock :( while I made some buttons for our Spring Solstice Swap in a few weeks - plus a few for Chrissy's book club. Buttons always make a birthday better.
Monday, March 9, 2009
Tomorrow I shall have pictures of many pretty buttons to share.
but now must go to bed.
Sunday, March 8, 2009
This was a decent weekend. Rested until 1 yesterday which was much needed. Clearly i've just worked myself too hard the last few weeks. I feel like all I do anymore is work and sleep, its about time that I get up and start doing things. (don't hold me to that) Anyways, rested and laid around yesterday, went to the buck and doe, played a game and had popcorn with pauly last night.
Up this morning thinking it was 9:30 and sadly it was already 10:30 with the time change. Cleaned up the sewing room and sorted through my fabrics, put together some stuff to take over to Terri's and spent the afternoon over there chatting, cutting fabric and just hanging out.
Home and watching TV (Brothers and Sisters - LOVE and can't get enough of this show) and just hanging out till Pauly gets home. I think i'll do a bit of reading when its done in bed, and hopefully up early for work. (no holding me to that either)
Saturday, March 7, 2009
And the green cover we got for our wii fit board so we don't slip and fall all over the place while doing the Tree Pose.
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
We put up our shamrocks on the front door yesterday. And they were a lovely welcoming of green when I got home tonight. I love theme door hangers.
Alright. Secondly lets just sum this up to what its clearly going to be: a venting session.
In exactly one week I will be 28. And as it stands I'm not overly happy with the life I'm living. I take full blame, I know the mistakes and choices I've made and how I got here. I just don't know how to get from where I am to where I want to be.
I guess when I look at things from an overall point of view - this just isn't where I thought I would be. And I know I'm not "behind" and I'm not necessarily in a "rush" but I do look at friends and family and think "I want to be where they are".
I want a job where I'm excited to get up every morning and go too. I want to live close or down the street from my best friends and be able to help them out and babysit or just get together for Sunday tea or a Saturday movie. I want to be able to afford a house (not a condo) and be able to decorate it just the way I want it. I want to be special enough to be a bridesmaid more then once in my life, and plan a wedding (my own wedding). I want to own my own store, and make up my own rules. (okay that might actually be what i want, but it would be cool) I want to live in a town that you don't have to take public transit in, and its safe to ride your bike down the street.
On days like today when work just gets out of control, I just wish I could disappear. Go to a life that doesn't really exist. I wish I knew the next steps to get out of this funk that I've been in for the last few years.
Although my life isn't horrible. I should say that. I have amazing friends (even if i don't' see them all that much) and a fantastic family. A loving (but video-game obsessed) boyfriend, and a warm apartment (that isn't too overpriced).
okay that's it. end of venting.
Monday, March 2, 2009
Secondly I'm participating in my first "blogging event" (tee hee hee) I'm going to take part in "Green Week" hosted by Emily @ Shining Egg. I'm very excited.
As I was at work, I was thinking...hum, I wonder what i'll come across thats green today - and I didn't have to look far. Turns out my desk is full of green things.
This is a little corner of my desk. Which houses my little green spotty alligator (gifty from manda), my green cup - which I actually got out of my drawer this morning, prior to finding out it was green week! My green Nestle NFL mousepad, some green pens & highlighter and hiden in the back some mint green mini eggs as my treat!
And a bonus little pic of the spotty alligator - oh he's too cute.
Sunday, March 1, 2009
Not just something - something from Sew Mama Sew!!! see here!
Oh my I never win anything! This is beyond exciting, so much so that I just yelled it throughout the house then got yelled at cause paul is taking nap before hockey - oops.
Oh i'm just soo excited! Okay i'll come back and post more in a bit, after i'm finished working (yes i've been working and napping today, instead of sewing)
Okay I'm back, a little less excited (but still really excited), spent most of today working on blocking charts and napping. And now i'm sitting on the floor in front of the TV (still working) watching the 2 hour episode of Brothers and Sisters - Love this show!
And this is what i've been snacking on this afternoon to keep me awake and focused (it's clearly not really working).